I attended my first board meeting at the Fresno E.O.C agency. I arrived early and met with another Humanics Scholar at the door. At first I felt confident about attending the meeting, given that I wasn’t attending the meeting alone. But, as I approached the room where the meeting was going to be held I began feeling really nervous. When I entered the room I began feeling extremely anxious, I began to sweat upon seeing so many people in the room. I froze and I didn’t know what to say to anyone I felt sick to my stomach and wanted to turn around and leave immediately.

However, I knew I had to introduce myself to one board member before the meeting and ask them if I could interview them after the meeting. I had no idea what I was going to do.  I am a very introverted person and I simply could not bring myself to talk to one of the board members. I went ahead and found a seat at the back of the room and waited for the meeting to start. As I was sitting there I began to think what I was doing there and why I was there but I could not stop feeling nervous and sick to my stomach. As I was sitting there I spotted another Humanics Scholar as he approached me and I asked him who he was going to interview. Instead of answering my question he actually offered to introduce me to someone on the board. I felt so grateful that he offered to introduce me to a board member because at the end of the board meeting, that same board member my colleague introduced me to, came up to me ready for the interview. Without the help of my fellow colleague, I honestly think I would have left that day without interviewing anyone from the board.

Furthermore, my first board meeting was a complete success considering I stayed for the entire meeting and I was successfully able to interview a board member. I felt accomplished at the end of the night and I felt that I was able to fully communicate all of the questions I had to ask. It was a great learning experience.